Digital Hellscape
Go ahead, fall into another relapse, chug another bottle of Levodopa, load your neurotransmitters with dopamine, overstimulate your brain, fry your mind, suffer from another string of mental illnesses.
You can never make peace with social media, there is no more compromise. They have now found more and more ways to hijack your mind and get you better hooked. They know how to target your insecurities, so you have no good reason to be tampering and fooling around with the devil.
As much as you say its to connect with friends and share your works you will never really do either one accordingly. Compromise is, again, impossible. You will be occupied by the number of likes you can get and you will never get enough of it. You are no buddha of temperance and you will never be. If completely avoiding social media is the lengths you have to go through to save your peace then let it be so.
Cynical eyes will lurk from every corner and the grits of gnashing teeth of envy will echo through the hallway of your mindscape. You will find yourself comparing your self to others and others to you. It will be a miserable hellish cycle of social exhibitionism and you will never have a single day’s peaceful rest. You will be haunted by thoughts of contradictory inadequacy and grandiosity and it will never be the last of you.
You will find yourself running after things that matter less than they seem in the long run and you will eventually hate yourself for betraying your dreams more than you already do. Your endless rabbit chase after these people who don’t care about you will be all for nothing yet you will come up with the most creative mental gymnastics to keep pushing through - creativity that you could’ve channeled into some better thing, for goodness’ sake.
You will be miserable. Absolutely miserable for the love of all that is holy to God and all His beloved. So please please please look after yourself and handle whatever this is with the biggest caution you can. Please be careful with whatever you decide to do. Social media should be catagorized as a psychosocial hazard and you should be at caution always.